Life with Anxiety

There are times when my mind starts racing, I start speaking really fast, solving the solution ends up becoming the problem and I just lose it out of nowhere... first comes the frustration then comes the tears after the tears end everything is over--- Or is it?

Have you ever reached a point of confusion and anger and no one is trying to understand you so yu end up lashing out like a kid!

That's exactly what my man says but how do you control it?

I've tried praying, deep breathing nothing works... Or may my judgement is clouded during the moment its happening!

I'm the most down-to-earth, lend you the shirt off my back kind of person. But yet I bare a cage around heart to keep me from getting myself hurt by others. I've been hurt before in the past by lots of people and honestly my judgement of reading people sucks like crap.  

How do you overcome your fear of worrying of thinking people are always out to get you!

Feeling personally attacked by situations that involves me explaining myself. I feel like if the person doesn't get my point I get upset. I like being in control but I lose it so fast I'm not sure if my short temper plays apart in my anxiety but I'm sure it has some sort of affiliation.

I'm not a crazy nut I love music R&B mostly, dancing (I always wanted to be a instructor), poetry (i have 2 spirals full of them), spending time with my kids and hanging with my friends. I live a everyday normal life I work and go school, I read to my 7 year old son every night, I cook dinner, clean house and enjoy my time with my man. 

My life is average I am consider to be in a low income family bracket but that doesn't make me feel any type of way. I know one day I will find my purpose in life and explore that new freedom.

As a black woman we are told not to get to loud or not to be to opinionated  because it comes off in a attitud-ish way. It's already hard to express my self to anyone who doesn't understand me and then you want to not get upset. Their is a huge percentage of women who suffer from different type of anxiety and we are frowned upon and categorized as angry.

To be continued..........